“You must recapitulate your entire life right from this moment all the way back to the instant of your birth. Otherwise, you will forever remain a clown re-enacting your folly.”
This is paraphrase of one of the key Toltec Aphorisms.
Here is my summary recapitulation map which was drawn from similar maps prepared for each year of my life.
Life can also be presented as a learning journey. My whole life began to pivot in 1995-6 around my crisis point.
I found drawing the map with key life events placed in chronological order helped me get my head round my life. To make sense of it and then to stop trying to make sense, stop making sense.
I’ll make a wager that most people have some unresolved issues, which continue to bug them from time to time and as a consequence they have a button. Say one has resentment about a given situation and from time-to-time festers on it. All someone has to do is press this button, even by accident, and off one trots into rage and disproportionate emotive behaviour. This is because one has not been able to resolve a certain “thing” and even when one revisits it there is a tendency to indulge rather than face up to one’s own role in a situation. People blame more readily than accept their part. Until one can gain a measure of objectivity about what has transpired there will always be a button. That button could cause mild anger or metaphorical nuclear attack.
There are other versions including melancholy etc..
One can make mind-maps as a method of self-analysis.
Any button, any unresolved issue is a marker of work still to be done, which may / may not be of karmic nature. Rather than avoid them and pretend they are not there it is best to approach these buttons and try to figure out why there is a button, or a hang up. This requires above all honesty but also courage.
I heard once enlightenment loosely defined as having no hang-ups. In other words, no karma to work on.
Have you got unresolved issues?
If so, are you going to try to resolve them?