EPSRC / Tibetan Café Dream 31-5-18 {Worked Up}

Here is this morning’s dream.

The dream starts in an academic setting. {Spiritual searching within common view of the world ?} I am at an event organised by the EPSRC {science research council}. It is all very corporate, with standing corporate publicity banners, all glossy. There are various little tables {the need to address problems}  with table cloths, bowls of sweets and flash corporate marketing literature. There is a big projection screen at one end of the room and chairs {comfort zone} set out for the upcoming presentation. The meeting is to do with the DTCs {doctoral training centres}. It is a big review. There is a very long table {the need to address problems} and sat {comfort zone} around it are a whole bunch of people, some of whom I used to know. In front of each person is an “official” name-place card. I really do not want to be there. The people sat {comfort zone} around the table {the need to address problems} assume that I do, they do not get that I don’t want to be there. The meeting starts, and I slope off unobserved out of the building {view of the world / point of view}.

Outside there is a small white {Peace / need for} “builder’s” van {State of awareness / level of perception}. I am met by a man there who is not yet known to me. Together we get in the van, I am driving. I ask him if he has a sat. nav. on his ‘phone {talking = need for communication} because we have to go to an address near Battersea Bridge {the need to recognise and eradicate separativeness; or the need to reconcile apparently opposing concepts}. He says yes but it will take a little while to boot up. We set off and he says that he hasn’t brought any lunch {eating – desire for spiritual nourishment}. I tell him not to worry because there is a café at the address.

We arrive at the address and there are two {humility and understanding / need for or symbol of destiny} entrances {door = possibility}, one for people on foot and another for vehicles. I say that I will go in the pedestrian entrance and open the vehicle access to the compound for him.

I walk along the river {unconditional love} path {direction} and to the entrance. To get in I have to pass through two {humility and understanding / need for or symbol of destiny} “arches” {door = possibility},  in succession. They are made out of church sandstone and are of a western design. They are quite ornate. I can only just squeeze myself through these arches, what with my frame being as big as it currently is. I get partially stuck but can, through relaxing, squeeze through.

I walk through the communal area and into the open courtyard {open spaces = freedom / rear of taking the gap to freedom?}. It is some kind of commune / city farm project. I go over to the gate {door = possibility}, and lift the bolt out of the ground. I then swing open the large corrugated sheet metal door {door = possibility}, and let the van {State of awareness / level of perception} into the compound.  We are met by a tall slender woman with white-grey hair. She knows me because previously she has been trying to sell me her property {view of the world / point of view}, which is a part of the city farm project.

She ushers me into her house {view of the world / point of view}.. In the dream I know her to be Dutch, {generally sensible people with an upfront demeanour and yet very open minded and liberal} she has that vibe as well. In the house we meet another tall, slim, younger woman, with brown hair. She greets the older woman and goes off to get more fully dressed. My companion asks me if they are lesbians {desire to know own femaleness? Bit of a stretch}. I say that yes it looks like they are in a lesbian relationship. We are possibly there to be doing some work for them.

When we step outside we can see a number of cats {temporal matters / activities}, quite a few. One of them comes over to me and makes a fuss of me rubbing itself against my leg {ability to move forward / progress in life} and twirling its tail. In the dream I am not allergic to cats.

Similarly, we meet some small dogs {friendship and loyalty}. Several of them make a fuss over me and rub themselves against me so as to mark themselves with my scent {smell = personal power / lack of. This suggests that I have some and not a lack}. The older woman notices this and comments that I have a way with dogs and asks if I have ever had one. I say that I had a ridgeback-boxer mix as a child. She says a Dutch word for this kind of dog and thinks it explains my manner with the animals.

We proceed forward to the communal area. I point out a balcony to my companion. “This is where someone DJs of a weekend when they have a gathering.” {Music – harmony?}

We move on to the café {eating – desire for spiritual nourishment}. The two {humility and understanding / need for or symbol of destiny} Dutch women, my companion and I sit at a low ethnic table {the need to address problems} , the middle of which is a hot plate for serving food hot at table. The plate is on and hot. A small wizened man in Tibetan {deeply mystical people who are Buddhism / Bon oriented and who manage to eke out a life under very harsh conditions, they are rugged, persevering, tough.} dress comes over to us and places some glasses on the table from which we will later drink {Drinking = the desire for freedom}. At the bottom of mine is some white {Peace / need for} powder. I am to warm the glass up on the hotplate and then blow into it so as to prepare the glass. This I do. When I blow into the glass some of the white {Peace / need for} powder contents land on my face. This causes all round hilarity. I taste the powder and much to my surprise it is coconut {?Sweet?}.

Some “Tibetan” women come over with the menus. “I will have two {humility and understanding / need for or symbol of destiny} Tibetan pancakes and an orange juice please”, I say. The meal is served, and I eat the pancakes with some yak butter. I wait for my orange {need to be cunning / shrewd? Probably not more likely drinking} juice. In time it comes and is poured into my prepared glass.

{Money = crystallised power here I do not have enough}

It is now time to pay and the Dutch woman has overestimated {“Dutch” people think I have more money than I do} how much money I might have. The bill for my part comes to 55 { 5 + 5 =10 which reduces to 1 = fluidity / lack of} Euros. I ask if they will accept sterling…yes. So that comes to around £50 { 5 = freedom and change / need for} , is that OK… yes that is fine.

I look into my wallet and all I have there is £35 {3 + 5 = 8 = balance and harmony / lack of}. I ask if they take cards, they do not. So, I suggest that I give her, the café manager, the £35 {3 + 5 = 8 = balance and harmony / lack of}.  and go and get the rest.

She is suspicious, but I know that if I promise to do this, I will. It is a matter of personal integrity. She says, “before I let you do this tell me more about yourself, what do you do?”

I say that I spend most of my time meditating and doing a little gardening. I sit in the full lotus position on the hotplate, on the table {the need to address problems}, to demonstrate. {In real life there is no way that I can do a lotus}

I ask her to look deep into my eyes {sobriety / lack of but suspect this is not the meaning here rather getting things across, communicating past suspicion; overcoming Tibetan suspicion} to see if I can be trusted. This she does. For a long while it is just her and me. Whilst we are thus engaged I say; “from what you can see now, is there a single dishonest bone in my body? Do you not think that if I promise to return with the £15 {light through darkness / need to look for the gift of power in the challenge} I will?” This is more mind-to-mind that actual words.

She remains suspicious but slowly something in her softens and she starts to change. The “spell” between us in the dream is broken. She is now happy for me to go away and come back with the £15 {light through darkness / need to look for the gift of power in the challenge}.

Dream ends

First Pass.

First comment there are a lot of tables and twos.

People from my past have a need to address problems one of which is that they just don’t get it, how I could slope off from their world and go to a “commune” type way of being.

I have a desire even a need for peace, which may be in contrast to what others imagine. Some people possibly Dutch want me to adopt their way of thinking and imagine that I am way better off than I am. I have a problem with Tibetans not trusting (darkness) me. Whilst I have personal power I have not crystalized this.

If I walk the path of unconditional love I may encounter a possibility in which, if I show humility and understanding, I may move towards my destiny. It will need for me to relax to pass through.

I will come back with light through darkness if I accept the gift of power inherent in these challenges. All I have is harmony and balance, but I need through fluidity to find freedom and change. That way I can bring light through darkness.