Towards Freedom – Power

It may seem a little out of place to start discussing power in the context of freedom and equanimity, but it is necessary. Until you have more than a notion of your relationship to power and with power, it is difficult to have balance. Power of course has many meanings, there are many types of power and it comes in all shades. There is power in the sense of dominance, power in the sense of ability, power in knowledge and power as in material plane enforcement. Power is a vast topic itself. Some people have power, that can be positional or organisational power, it can be personal power, it can be muscular power or sexual power. There is the saying that power corrupts, though it need not, it often does. Humanity has a bit of a thing for and about societal power; it has a status hang up.

If you wield power in the sense of political or corporate power, it is unlikely that you will have equanimity and peace. This is because people are so often fighting for power. Even if your powerful position is secure, by the very nature of that position you will be required to make decisions. Those decisions are a responsibility of positional power and rarely do they come with serenity and peace. It is not the fate of most people to learn what high positional power means and those so called are in for a bit of a tough time. All societies have leaders, and these are of varying ability and quality. Some seek power with a thirst. And it is many that are so drawn who end up abusing power. Power has many traps associated for those drawn to it.

In the context of freedom, it is useful to figure out what has power over you and then adjust that situation. Things that have power over you can be as simple as arachnophobia. If a simple spider makes you come out in a sweat, then you are not free of spiders. A tiny creature can evoke a massive drama. It is not the spider’s fault, it is your reaction. For whatever reason you have a fear and a drama associated in your mind with spiders. Chances are this is disproportionate. Few spiders attack humans just because there is nothing better on the TV to watch. People have hang ups about a host of things and this restricts their liberty. Anything which can evoke drama upsets balance.  If small creatures have power over you, then what does that say about your level of mental control and balance?

Similarly, because of co-dependency, there are many people who have power over you. Some will go out of their way to manipulate you into a dependency and if you are so oriented you might even seek such people out, whether consciously or not. There are a multitude of buttons available to others for the pressing of. If at the pressing of a button off you trot into drama, then that button and the finger thereupon, have power over you. It can evoke drama and lack of control, you are off balance and flailing around. It is in this dependency and co-dependency that people give their power away to others. If you want to be free, then you do not need other beings having emotional power over you.

Many of the things that have power over you are to be found in the truck load of baggage which most adults carry with them. There may be shame, wounds, ambitions, unresolved conflict, grudges, guilt, vengeance, fear, unrequited love etc… The list is often long and until you have clarity on where the button comes from, it will stand proud and beckoning. It is in unpacking the baggage and by examination that one can begin to understand and slowly loosen the power over which is held. To be relatively free of buttons is to have more freedom generally. One is not beholden to the past and the narratives of it, which if we bear in mind the likelihood of selective perception are in any case often inaccurate. Memories and history are prevalent members of the set of buttons which are the indicators of something that has power over.  A skilled manipulator can spot these a mile off and press them at will.

If you seek freedom, then you must defend it. This may sound ever so slightly bellicose, but one has to fight to extract oneself from situations in which things, people and ideas have power over you. The past has power over most and reorienting the past in such a manner as to be free of it, is no easy task. The common dream advertises that building memories for your dotage is a good thing, but who can really live in a sepia or rose-tinted world? It is not real. It is imagined and unreliable of recall. To build “memories” is to never be free of them. This is perhaps slightly radical but do consider this. If you live in a mish mash recollection of the past, what do you make of the present, if you even notice it all? To be bound thus, is to not experience the now.

I have used bound, shackles and manacles already in this text, emotive words of slavery and imprisonment. It is up to you to figure out if I am by metaphor over egging the pudding. Until the duvet of illusion is pulled off, there is a cosy familiarity which can seemingly be justified.

Of course, in any material society there will be people and organisations that have temporal power over the circumstances of your life. Short of going off into the wild, this will always be the case. The freedom of complete anarchy is not currently possible in large society, this need not impinge overly on your state of mind, your mental freedom. One can see it for what it is, do the minimum necessary to be a “good” citizen and not feel overly oppressed by the apparatus of state. Within this framework it is possible not to succumb to ideological power over. People will do whatever they do, they will think whatever and opine ad infinitum. None of this need impact on your own equanimity. One does not have to agree, or argue or succumb. If your own mind is clear it is not overly perturbed by the folly and behaviours of others. Unless they are directly intent on harming or manipulating you, they are not direct threats. In keeping your centre, you can rise above it. If you cannot resist the pull of hive or herd mind, then it has power over you, which means you are not yet free of it.

As you begin to see though your own façade, understand your self and get close to your true nature, you will be acquiring power in the sense of knowledge. That knowledge pertains not only to you as a being but to other beings. This knowledge then opens up choices, possibilities for you which were hitherto not available, you have more personal power and more freedom. Freedom is in your choice as to how you respond to whatever life throws at you. There will be a reduced rigidity and an enhanced flexibility of living. With more personal power comes the temptation to exploit that power and perhaps use situations and others to your “advantage”. With all growth in personal power comes temptation. In the absence there are few choices. When there is a plethora of choices available some will not be life enhancing. If you are so inclined, you may use your personal power to exert power over others. As alluded to above that way is not freedom. How can one be free if one enslaves? It is not possible.

I have briefly touched on power here. Learning to handle new found personal power is a part of the walk to freedom. Keeping oneself grounded and developing humility offsets the temptation of power, which can enslave. In this sense knowledge is power which without wisdom and discernment can be a dangerous thing.

60 in a Billion

The probability of getting 24 Fu four consecutive times in an I Ching consultation is something like 60 parts per billion, which is not very likely.

Last night I was having a conversation about high technology start-ups and venture capital with a friend over skype. This morning I did the I Ching. This afternoon we went to the seaside and this evening we decanted some apple and cranberry home brew wine for our “nut store”. We shall bottle the apricot and the apple during the week to come. I have started doing some chanting on and off, a return. I have been writing about returning to the source like Neo, in some sense.

As per usual the inscrutable I Ching provides much food for thought. 

The sense of Fu is pivot / fulcrum about which the trajectory of a life changes.

I get my cancer clearance arse-camera later this year, I may get my metallic pin removed from my hip. None of these things can be rushed.

The I Ching is being fairly insistent that things are starting to change…

How and in what way remains to be seen, it is a bit of a mystery….

Succumb

as the tide of years

rubs the sand

against the bastion

of your pride

 

your certainty

your inviolate truths

as you succumb

again and again

 

as you choose

face over courage

arrogance over humility

as the very sap drains from you

 

secure in your safety

as the cotton wool familiars

bed downy nights with you

and those certain dawns

 

when the calendar

of your days

grows ever shorter

and even the sand, runs out

 

that bastion can join you

in your box

your succubus, your incubus

and mate for all eternity

 

and when you pass

and see them both

nestled there;

will your Soul cry?

Humility Quotes

My religion consists of a humble admiration of the illimitable superior spirit who reveals himself in the slight details we are able to perceive with our frail and feeble mind.

Albert Einstein

 

I stand here before you not as a prophet, but as a humble servant of you, the people.

Nelson Mandela

 

We have to stop and be humble enough to understand that there is something called mystery.

Paulo Coelho

 

In questions of science, the authority of a thousand is not worth the humble reasoning of a single individual.

Galileo Galilei

 

One may be humble out of pride.

Michel de Montaigne

 

Don’t be humble… you’re not that great.

Golda Meir

 

Let us be a little humble; let us think that the truth may not perhaps be entirely with us.

Jawaharlal Nehru

 

Humble souls are fearful of their own strength.

William Gurnall

 

I’m humble enough to wait and just chill. I’m having fun just working with these good people, man.

Mike Epps

 

Yes, I am proud, and very humble too.

Anne Sullivan Macy

 

Do you wish to be great? Then begin by being. Do you desire to construct a vast and lofty fabric? Think first about the foundations of humility. The higher your structure is to be, the deeper must be its foundation.

Saint Augustine

 

Humility is not thinking less of yourself, it’s thinking of yourself less.

Rick Warren

 

If I only had a little humility, I’d be perfect.

Ted Turner

No more ripples

Whence cometh I?

 

In a plainsong chant

Caught on a cloud

That brought me here

 

And I signed it with my blood

 

To leave behind

No more ripples

 

Than a stone makes

On the surface

… … …Of a pond

 

No regrets, no memories

Unused and unfiltered

 

To have lived a life

Extreme, yet largely unnoticed

 

To have probed the

Very edges of existence

… … … and yet

 

Remained humble

 

To never have willingly

Lorded it over another

 

Always to offer a choice

And never to force

 

To have sought

To have found

 

And in the finding

To renounce all

… … …That binds

 

To soar singular

Where no one dares

 

Unheard and unheeded

To plumb the depths

 

… … … Of mystery

 

To point as prow

Into consciousness

 

To climb the cosmic ladder

And sing my song

 

And to Ganesh

In the stellar Kush

 

Whence goeth I?

 

In a plainsong chant

Caught on a cloud

That takes me there

 

And I sign it with my blood