Théun Dying Dream 22-10-2011

I am somehow at a hotel resort overlooking vast dunes. I notice Théun walking there, and he looks very old and frail. I ask him if he would like to talk. {According to published dates he is already dead several weeks}. No not now he replies, and he turns and walks away. I think to myself “whatever”.

I proceed along the dune cliffs for a while and find a sandy entrance to the sea. I start to make my way down the sand, but the coastline has changed since I was last here. So, I lay back on the sand and allow it to carry me down as it collapses into the sea. I am a little scared but not that much. As the cliff crumbles, I end up in the sea. I am dressed in shorts with my purple polo shirt. I am standing in the sea and the current is very strong. There is no way back up the cliff. I know that what I have to do is float. I lie back into the water and allow the current to take me. I float along the shore until I find a way back out of the sea. I clamber over the green wall / verge up onto the promenade. I am wearing a sparkly silver bathing costume and my physique is muscular and extraordinary.  I wander along the promenade it has a Spanish feel to it.

Working my way through the cafes and bars I bump into Théun. He has changed his mind and ushers me into a bar / hall. There is masonic symbolism here. He heads off inside with a renewed vigour / youth. He beckons me to follow him which I do.

He is lying on a bed with two other men. I am to join them. I lie down on the bed.

{All four directions are now covered.}

One of the men offers me an inhaler with some liquid spray. I take the inhaler and inhale a squirt. He offers it again and I take some more. He says that it is free, and the Spanish health authority pays for it.

Somehow, we are all sat around a table, and he asks me to speak about the village.  I say that I have felt people here and that Neil has definitely been here. Yes, he had a major impact on the town. He has modernised the electricity and sorted out some of the attractions at the funfair. We chat a little longer.

The two other men get up to leave joking with each other about buying some weed.

Théun is now paddling in the sea, and I see him from a distance begin to have trouble. He is having difficulty breathing. Somehow, I am with someone who looks like my cousin J who is a nurse. I ask her what is needed it is my Ventolin. When I get there, he is being given CPR. I go to the hospital with him. I am sat beside him feeling his veins whilst they sort out a drip. I know that I am bringing him comfort. He passes away. There is a no resuscitation order in place. It is clear to see that he was in a mess physically.

With the J look alike I say that I need to tell the groups. She asks why do I need to tell the groups as I don’t believe in the Toltec Teachings. I tell her that despite what many think I have always been working with the Toltec Teachings just not with the groups. There are a few who I have been working and in contact with especially B. She seems OK with this and will allow me to contact them through her. She wants to tell a friend in Switzerland. I say no it must be concerted.

We stop off for her to charge her phone and put money into her internet account. She opens up a contraption to do this. It has cylinders of oxygen which she plugs in to the phone to charge and soon we will be ready.

OK now we have to think. What was Théun’s purpose in ensuring that I was there at the end? That I was the last person holding his arm and that I will be the one to tell the groups about how he died? Knowing full well that they will be pleased it was me there at the end.

Note:

It is not uncommon for me to have “visitations” from the not long dead.

Théun Mares – Heart Dream – 01-08-2011

I am in Africa with Théun. We are dressed in khaki shorts, with boots and khaki hunting vests. We are walking in a river, and he is showing me some aspect of hunting {stalking}. As we walk along we catch various fish which we discard. We near a rock pool which is where we are going to fish. The river goes between a rock formation, and he waits to show me what is past that. So, we go through the formation and right up to the lip of a waterfall which is there. The water cascades over this into a massive plunge pool. It is totally beautiful. I am a little nervous about the height but cope OK. As we pull back from the edge, I lift up the entire river bed as if looking underneath a carpet. I can see stars and a night sky under the “carpet”. I replace the carpet and we move back to the fishing spot.

Later on, we are inside a room. In front of us on a table lies a giant human heart which is still pulsing. I start to run a grater / mandolin over the heart. This removes the vitrified muscle so that the heart can function better. Théun looks on and there is the sense of us working on this heart together.

On the evening of the 4th of September, we were sat in the kitchen and our Le Creuset cast iron baking tray spontaneously split in two. I later learned that Théun is down as of the 5th of September as having passed peacefully in the night.

Le Bateleur – Tarot 1 – Fluidity

The translation to Magician is a bit of a stretch I think it means juggler {?}.

This Tarot card corresponds to the Jewel of Awareness fluidity. I think it fair to say that I am a fairly fluid being, certainly my mind and my interest are capable of switching subject quickly. But fluidity means a little more than flexibility it means in many ways Dao and going with the flow of life not trying to force. It means respond and not react.

If you look at the card here the chap has all his tools, his skills and abilities laid out in front of him on his table and when faced with a problem(table) or a decision he might be thinking what shall I use from my skill set? How best to proceed.

In his left hand he holds either a wand or as I prefer to think of it a flute, perhaps a magic flute, Die Zauberflöte. The coin in his right hand may be about to disappear up his sleeve. One can imagine him leading a stream of rats or children as he dances through the streets of Hamlyn.

Here is a verbalisation by Theun Mares.

It is also the card of the Westerly Dreamer, the female dreamer in the West the place of the Dreamers in Space. It is the card of facing the unknown and to do this with rigidity can only end in disaster. One has to be fluid with what life and the universe sends for us.

On and off these last few days I have been “getting” this card breaking through…

The Yellow Rose and The Soular Lotus

When it comes to models, it is wise to remember that they are just that. It is easy to fall into the trap of imagining the model to be reality and the sum total of reality at that.

When I first started doing the dreaming practice which involves a rājā yoga visualisation of a yellow rose, I was like a duck to water. This was because I can visualize multiple dimensions and things like symmetry operations easily.

Here is an annotated Toltec version of Otz Chiim. In blue are my suggestions.

Visualizing the yellow rose invokes the lightning strike from “on high” and this is an invigorating thing to do. One is intending union with the dreamer the Soul. As a part of the dreaming practice one can ascertain the dreaming colour or in other words upon which ray the egoic or Soular lotus is to be found. The idea is to fully open the heart, the lotus. After eight years of several times a day I switched to the Master in the Heart meditation which builds the Antahkarana {in red} up to the Soular lotus and beyond. In other words, this meditation builds Jacob’s ladder.

The two models do not coincide completely but there are correspondences.

What one has to bear in mind is that these two-dimensional flat representations are in fact at least three dimensions. Visualizing both of these diagrams in 3d should help.

The idea is to bring about complete fusion of Soul and personality, cooperation between the dreamer and the dreamed. This is the first goal of yoga or union.

In effect one hands the steering wheel of the physical plane entity over to the Soul or the Dreamer. Union is the true meaning of yoga.

Mayavirupa and the First Insight

The Rule of the Three Pronged Nagal – First Insight

Toltecs have long been contemplating the deeper implications inherent within the act of incarnation. Although it is true that, since they are attached to the wheel of rebirth, the majority of beings have no choice in this matter, how do we define the urge that drives free beings into incarnation as if they too have no choice?

A difficult question this and one that appears to have no easy answer.

Toltecs have for a long time known that, in dealing with life, technical answers are but a convenient way in which to arrive at clarity. But technicalities cannot explain, much less probe, the subjective. Therefore our models of both man and the universe are just that, models of objective reality that allow us to explore our past, and map out the unknown. But how does one build a model of that which gives rise to the objective universe? How does one build a model of life? How does one model that which is pure feeling?

Therefore, although we can define the cause of existence, we cannot define that subjective something which gives rise to that cause, other than to say its expression is love in action. But although love in action is clear to see, love itself is as irrational as is life. We know neither the purpose of life nor the intent which imbues it with that meaning we term love in action.

Mayavirupa

The Mayavirupa is literally the illusory form; it is the body of temporary manifestation which the Adept creates on occasion through the power of the will and in which He functions in order to make certain contacts on the physical plane and to engage in certain work for the [human] race.  CF 761

Mayavi Rupa.  Sanskrit, “Illusive Form.”  It is the body of manifestation created by the adept by an act of will for use in the three worlds.  It has no material connection with the physical body.  It is spiritual and ethereal and passes everywhere without let or hindrance.  It is built by the power of the lower mind, of the highest type of astral matter.  IHS 221

…The stage wherein–after the fourth initiation–there is direct unbroken relation between the Monad, via the Triad, and the form which the Master is using to do His work among men.  This form may be either His temporary personality, arrived at along the normal lines of incarnation, or the specially created form to which Theosophists give the technical but cumbersome word “mayavirupa.”  It is the “true mask, hiding the radiant light and the dynamic energy of a revealed Son of God.”  RI 50-51

He [the initiate] can work through a physical body (with its subtler sheaths) or not, as he sees fit. He realizes that he, as an individual, no longer needs a physical body or an astral consciousness, and that the mind is only a service instrument. The body in which he now functions is a body of light which has its own type of substance. The Master, however, can build a body through which He can approach His incoming disciples and those who have not taken the higher initiations; He will normally build this body in semblance of the human form, doing so instantaneously and by an act of the will, when required. The majority of the Masters who are definitely working with humanity either preserve the old body in which They took the fifth initiation or else They build the “mayavirupa” or body of maya, of physical substance. This body will appear in the original form in which They took initiation. This I personally did in reference to the first case; i.e., preserving the body in which I took initiation.  This the Master K.H. did in creating a body which was made in the form in which He took the fifth initiation.  RI 705

The Master Jesus on the Cross could not respond to any saving process (even had He desired to do so) because the soul body–as is always the case at the fourth initiation–was destroyed; there was nothing to respond to the evocative power of an outside person, interested or loving.  As an adept and as one in whom monadic consciousness was firmly established, the powers then available to Jesus could not be used in the saving of His physical body.  At the same time, it must be remembered that He would have no desire to save it, because He now possessed the power (demonstrated later in the Gospel story) to create a body at will in order to meet His needs.  EH 654

Some of the Masters will create what is called in the language of the East the “mayavirupa”–a vehicle of expression which is built of atomic physical and astral substance and of concrete mental substance. This They can create at will, use at will and cause to vanish at will; Their problem is not, therefore, so acute in the matter of appearing and of reappearing as is that of the initiate who cannot thus create to suit his purpose and his service.  EX 697

Applicants for initiation and initiates up to the third initiation use both the sutratma and the antahkarana, employing them as a unit.  The power of the Triad begins to pour through, thus energizing all human activities upon the physical plane, and vitalizing in ever increasing degree the man’s thought forms.  The key to the formation of the Mayavirupa is found in the right comprehension of the process.  CF 959-960 [See also: ENA 31]

The three aspects of the will, as focused in the Spiritual Triad, are now in full expression; the initiate is animated by Purpose, but faces still greater evolutionary developments; of these I do not need to speak, as they concern divine aspects as yet unknown and unregistered by man.  The reason for this complete ignorance is that the vehicles of any man below the third initiation contain too much “impure matter” to record the impact of these divine qualities.  Only the “created body” (the mayavirupa) of an initiate of the fourth initiation can begin to register these divine impacts; it is therefore a waste of our time to consider even the possibility of their existence.  RI 317

The soul then prepares itself for the coming fourth initiation.  This is basically a monadic experience and results–as you know–in the disappearance or destruction of the soul vehicle or causal body, and the establishment, therefore, of a direct relation between the monad on its own plane and the newly created personality, via the antahkarana.  EH 518

The causal body is itself eventually done away with when the pupil takes the fourth initiation and can freely create his own body of manifestation.  LOM 275

In the mode whereby the liberated disciple can now create a body for physical plane contact and for service in the three worlds–this time not under the Law of Necessity but under the Law of Service, as understood by the initiate.  EH 505

The fourth initiation marks the complete realization of this relation by the initiate.  It enables him to say:  “I and my Father are one.”  It is for this reason that the crucifixion, or the Great Renunciation, takes place.  Forget not that it is the soul that is crucified.  It is Christ Who “dies.”  It is not the man; it is not Jesus.  The causal body disappears.  The man is monadically conscious.  The soul-body no longer serves any useful purpose; it is no more needed.  Nothing is left but the sutratma, qualified by consciousness–a consciousness which still preserves identity whilst merged in the whole.  Another qualification is creativity; thus consciousness can be focussed at will on the physical plane in an outer body or form.  This body is will-created by the Master.  RI 455

When the antahkarana is built, and the mental unit is superseded by the manasic permanent atom, and the causal body disappears, then the adept knows that the lower mind, the mental body, is also an illusion and is, for him, non-existent.  There are then–as far as his individual consciousness is concerned–only three focal points or anchorages (both of these expressions are inadequate to express the full meaning):

1. Humanity, in which he can focus himself at will through the medium of what is called technically the “mayavirupa”–a bodily form which he creates for the fulfillment of monadic purpose.  RI 481

At the fourth initiation, the initiate is brought into the Presence of that aspect of Himself which is called “His Father in Heaven.”  He is brought face to face with his own Monad, that pure spiritual essence on the highest plane but one, which is to his Ego or higher self what that Ego is to the personality or lower self….For the remainder of his appearances in the three worlds he is governed only by will and purpose, self-initiated, and creates his body of manifestation, and thus controls (within karmic limits) his own times and seasons.  The karma here referred to is planetary karma, and not personal.  IHS 117

This marks the fourth Initiation; after that Initiation, the Adept makes for Himself a body of manifestation, a free creation–there is nothing in Him to call into objectivity a body for use in the three worlds and evolved under the Law of Causes.  LOM 11

The intuition (or buddhi) being the unifying principle and thus welding all, at the fourth initiation the lower vehicles go, and the adept stands in his intuitional body, and creates from thence his body of manifestation.  LOM 339

Since buddhi is the unifying principle (or the welder of all), at the fifth initiation the adept lets the lower vehicles go, and stands in his buddhic sheath.  He creates thence his body of manifestation.  IHS 16-17

It must be remembered that a Master has no personality at all.  His divine nature is all that He has.  The form through which He works (if he is working through and living in a physical vehicle) is a created image, the product of a focussed will and the creative imagination; it is not the product of desire, as in the case of a human being.  This is an important distinction and one which warrants careful thinking.  The lesser lives (which are governed by the Moon) have been dispersed.  They no longer respond to the ancient call of the reincarnating soul, which again and again has gathered to itself the lives which it has touched and colored by its quality in the past.  The soul and the causal body no longer exist by the time the fourth initiation is undergone.  What is left is the Monad and the thread, the antahkarana which it has spun out of its own life and consciousness down the ages and which it can focus at will upon the physical plane, where it can create a body of pure substance and radiant light for all that the Master may require.  This will be a perfect body, utterly adapted to the need, the plan and the purpose of the Master.  None of the lesser lives (as we understand the term) form part of it, for they can only be summoned by desire.  In the Master there is no desire left, and this is the thought held before the disciple as he begins to master the significance of the fourth Rule.  RI 101

If the deva, or solar Angel, is no longer attracted by matter, then there is no identification, and objective life is no longer the law of his existence.  He identifies himself then with quality, or energy, and becomes an expression of the divine attributes.  Objectivity may then ensue as a voluntary offering to the good of the group or planetary existence, but identification with the separated form is no longer the case.  The human vehicle then created is as much a thought form in this case as any other particularized idea, and the greatest act of conscious magic is to be seen.  All other magical creations are subsidiary to this.  Through manipulation of negative and positive energy, thus bringing them to the point of equilibrium before informing them, the perfected body of the Adept is formed.  CF 1013-1014

In the case of all avatars it is the will aspect which is brought into play, and which produces appearance–either the will of the perfected adept, such as the Buddha Himself, or (as in the case of the true Avatar, Who is, and Who has not achieved) the will of the planetary Logos or of the solar Logos, taking form for a specific purpose.  It involves a higher display of the creative faculty than that displayed by the Adept in the creation of His body of manifestation, the Mayavirupa.  CF 760-761

La Maison Dieu – 16

On and off this morning I have been “getting” tarot 16, la Maison Dieu.

This verbalisation is by Theun Mares

There is a feeling of comeuppance or reckoning in the offing, but this is not insofar as I can tell, pertaining to me.

Yesterday we had some thunder but as yet no lightning, the dreaming symbol for intent.

I can feel it, intent, universal intent is on the move.

I love lightning and I have yet to see the childhood electrical storms of Mt Isa beaten.

I am also getting a growing Dune vibe.

Something is shifting.